Do you ever feel like you meet someone and God brought them into your life to simply show His goodness to you. Our friend, our sister, or neighbor she is just like that. She loves, she serves she is a little piece of heaven right here on my living room floor rolling around with Callahan.
It's been two years since this girl walked into our world. Two years since I saw those frustration tears of a new job, hit the floor of the office. My stomach turns as I think about her moving away. How will I survive with out the most comfortable friendship I have out here in California. Why are we created as relational beings when life is full of goodbye's? Nothing is eternal here.
I sit in a place of wonder.
In choosing to enter into authentic relationships with people, I'm choosing a hard goodbye. Is it worth it? I could stay surface level with everyone and I would never have to feel the hurt of a "goodbye". If I don't open up, and have real authentic relationships with people, am I missing out?
I think about Eryn, what if we never formed a deep meaningful friendship, I completely would have missed out! Eryn is an image bearer of God (as we all are). Her servant's heart, her sensitivity, and her love for my family; I would have missed it all!
As I read Anne Voskamps Blog, "A Holy Experience", the words pop on the page. They read, "if you don't take it all as a gift, you end up taking it all for granted--which amounts to not taking anything good form life at all.
She goes on to say,"you don't get the always, you get the awe." Why do we feel the need to capture the always. Why can't the awe be good enough! I will sit now and linger in the "awe" because I will never get the always. I will soak up the awe of the moment until the moment is over.
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